Sandar harap mu

 



Kalau rasanya sendiri sekali, itu artinya Allah sedang mengeliminasi semua harap kepada selain-Nya.


Itu karena Dia sayang, karena Dia tidak mau kamu kecewa. Karena Dia tahu, bersandar pada makhluk hanya akan menimbulkan patah hati. Dia tidak ingin hatimu patah, Dia yang paling tahu cara melindungimu dari tangis berkepanjangan.


Mendekatlah terus, terus mendekat.

Meskipun yang dulu kamu lakukan itu sangat buruk, tiada Dzat yang lebih pemaaf selain Dia. Kapanpun kamu datang, kapanpun kamu minta, Dia pasti akan menerimamu kembali dengan penuh sukacita. Karena demikianlah kasih sayang Tuhan pada hamba-Nya, tiada yang bisa menandingi, bahkan ibu kandungmu sendiri.


Selama hatimu masih menggantungkan harap pada makhluk, selama itu pula Dia akan terus menyingkirkan harap itu. Hingga kamu sadar, bahwa tidak ada satu orang pun manusia di muka Bumi ini yang patut kamu jadikan sandaran. 

***

Bogor, 28 Januari 2021

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