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Tidying Up! Now!

If you got trapped into situation where you are emotionally exhausted, overwhelmingly sad without knowing why, and physically tired.. Try to look around.Maybe you've carried too much baggage that weigh you down. So that you could never be genuinely happy. You don't know why, but you keep feeling sad over and over again. You craved for something that you know isn't yours and won't be yours.If this has happened to you, or is happening now, try to look around. Look at the ceiling in your room. Look at the corner, under the table, look everything your eyes can see. Is there any clutter there?
Is there any pile of stuff stuck for ages?
Is there anything you never used but you keep it in the room just to make sure it was there?And if the answer is yes, then you must discard them all.What?Yeah.Clutter means unnecessary belonging filling the space. What good does clutter bring? Zero. What joy does clutter have? Zero.Maybe its the used pen you keep so dearly because it reminds yo…

Change

If life is a constant change, then you might not be the same person as you were yesterday. And so they are. You, and the people you know long ago, may still the same in look, and in habit. But not the way they see life.Keep moving even when it feels weird and different. Even if you have to cut some ties or tighten the grip.People are always changing, so never depend your happiness on other. Its not them who could make us happy. Its us, and the beast inside us.Respect people who not remain the same. Dont judge them for being too selfish. And promise me that you'll put yourself before other people, too. Because in a world full of ignorant, only us can love us more than anyone.

Resetting the Goal

I got a story, told by one of the client on our way down the road. It was raining, and we had a three hours drive upon us. So.. They started to make a joke about life before turning the topic on nostalgic story. This one guy had a broken heart experience that he decided to share it with us. He had a best friend, a girl. They were together since high school, their house even so near that he can pick her up everyday until college.They are extremely close that their group suspect them of having an affair, more than just a friend. He must confess that he too have feelings for her. But he doesn't have enough courage to tell her, because he respect their friendship.Even after they graduate he still going on a trip with her along with the group.Until one day.. When his job was getting crazier, he couldn't take the trip. The group was decided to go with one additional member. A doctor, he said. A friend of her. He never knew that not taking that trip means missing a chance of getting …

Generation

The Jewish.. why are they so passionate about their work? Why are they excel in every field they're doing? 

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It is pain, that unites people. If you realized, how Dutch armies has united this separated island into one fight under national flag. It is war, that we seek. As what Loki said in his first attempt to conquer Earth, this is what human beings naturally are, we're in desperate need of conquerer. Being enslaved as we used to. Freedom is just a lie, because nothing is really free in this world. 

Human's basic need is ego. Fulfilling the ego, is like drinking the ocean and still not enough. 

We are all separated. Categorized by labels, religion, skin color, nationality, not until the species from outter space are coming in that we'll unite as a team. Otherwise, we fight each other to prove who's the strongest. 

Isn't it?

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World is in chaos. People are trying to fix it. 

I was once thinking that I could be part of them. Be a big guy, who do big significant thin…

Marvelous Conspiration

Despite of all talks about minimalism and living a peaceful life, I also dragged into some topics about work ethic. 

See that in this age (which, I am in my middle twenties now), is the age of huge fast changing. I can say that most of people I used to know, are not the same person anymore (including me). Our environment has transformed us into a new person, we've built stranger inside, that we can't deny. 

This is interesting, because from the place I work for, I can still spotted people who.. remain the same. 

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There's nothing wrong about sentiment. That makes us human, by the way (will be extinct, any soon). But in work, things are easier without sentiment. Why?

Once you've eliminate the feelings, you'll work twice harder than before. You'll push your self, in the name of hard work and one lead to another, you'll push your coworker too. 

You won't care its either they're in some kind of family trouble, or illness whatsoever. They must get the work d…

Mother of Stars

Jauhperjalananmencariintanpujaan
aduhai
dimanapuan
mengapapergi
tanpapamitan *** Sore, pergi tanpa pesan. Adalah penggalan lirik lagu di atas berasal. Saya kembali menembus rintik hujan malam hari, selepas menonton film yang begitu membuai. *** Ketika seseorang telah menyadari dan merasa tercukupi kebutuhannya, ia tidak akan lagi berletih-letih mengejar dunia agar diakui. Berpenampilan, bukan lagi masalah baginya. Karena ia tahu, penampilan terbaik datang dari hati yang bahagia. Bukan dari seberapa mahal dan mewah pakaian yang dikenakan, tapi seberapa nyaman. Ia pun akan lebih senang menyimpan penghasilannya, sebagai rasa menghargai atas usaha keras yang telah ia lakukan selama ini. Pun kalau harus digunakan untuk kesenangan, ia akan lebih memilih 'membeli' pengalaman ketimbang benda-benda. Begitulah cara berpikir minimalist, yang sudah merasa puas dengan dirinya sendiri. *** Dalam beberapa hari jalanan akan semakin ramai. Para pekerja kantoran akan merayakan hari terbayarnya usah…

Have Faith

Kenapa orang tidak bahagia?
Karena ia khawatir.Khawatir besok tidak akan mendapat kebahagiaan. Khawatir besok tidak ada uang untuk beli makan. Khawatir besok dia akan ditinggalkan. Nyaris di semua kepercayaan yang meyakini adanya Tuhan, mengajarkan tentang iman. Dalam Islam, iman artinya percaya. Percaya pada enam hal, yang salah satunya adalah takdir baik dan takdir buruk. Sejatinya seseorang jika sudah percaya akan semua yang telah digariskan sebagai jalan terbaik untuknya, maka ia tidak perlu lagi mengkhawatirkan apapun. Tugasnya hanyalah menikmati detik menit yang ada, karena mereka tidak akan pernah berputar kembali. Arus waktu maju terus, tidak akan mundur walau sedetik.Kekhawatiran, kecemasan dan rasa memiliki yang berlebihan hanya akan menghabiskan ruang damai di dalam pikiran seseorang. Seperti halnya lemari besar yang ditaruh ditengah-tengah ruangan sempit. Lemari itu memiliki banyak ruang, dan disetiap ruangnya ditumpuki barang-barang.Isi kepala yang penuh, akan selalu keta…

Inhuman

Work or broke. But don't let work make you.. be less human. 

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Seorang ilmuwan - psikologist dan statistikawan - mati bunuh diri. Teori yang ia cetuskan teramat kontroversial, dan berkat menonton ulang film Thor (Thor dan Thor: The Dark World) saya kembali diingatkan oleh betapa frustrasinya orang yang tidak dipercaya atas penelitiannya.

Banyak orang bisa gila karena bekerja, dan sebaliknya, bisa gila karena tidak juga mendapat pekerjaan. Seolah-olah bekerja adalah tujuan utama setiap manusia di muka bumi. Lahir, sekolah, lulus kemudian bekerja. Terlepas akan menikah atau tidak, bekerja dan memperoleh pendapatan adalah hal utama.

Tanpa sadar, kita seperti telah selling our soul to the company. Rela melakukan apapun agar dibayar sepadan, bahkan jika harus tinggal jauh dari keluarga sekalipun.

Semakin banyak seseorang bekerja, (biasanya) berbanding lurus dengan pendapatannya, dan (sayangnya) juga berbanding lurus dengan pengeluarannya. Saya tidak akan membahas contoh dari kehidupa…

A Good Cry

Men are taught to be strong since a little age,
Women are taught to be strong, especially since feminist arise,As if the world has no place for the weak.
But.. Is it true?***Seorang perempuan penderita depresi memberanikan diri bercerita di depan publik, TED Talk tepatnya. Berkisah tentang pengalamannya didiagnosa terserang depresi, dan memiliki tingkat kecemasan tinggi. Tujuan pembicaraannya sederhana; ingin membuat orang lain yang terkena serangan yang sama, tidak merasa sendirian. Karena melalui depresi, tidak boleh diam-diam.Angka tingkat bunuh diri sekarang semakin mengkhawatirkan, sebab dunia semakin sering berbicara dan jarang mendengar. Jangankan memahami, mendengar pun susah. Aku, aku, aku, ujar semua orang. Tidak ada ruang untuk orang lain karena akulah yang terpenting.Karena tanpa disadari, depresi justru adanya dekat sekali. Seseorang bahkan tidak bisa mengidentifikasi depresi yang sedang menjangkiti dirinya. Ya, berdasarkan cerita perempuan tadi. Dia tidak merasa dirinya se…

Women Can Never be Alone

"Yes, they can!"
"No, they can not!"
"YES, they can!!"
"NO, they..."

Enough!

You have your thought, I have mine. Now if you'll excuse me, I wanna explain my opinion about this topic. It's up to you now, whether you wanna be an open minded human who hear all possibility, or a dumbass close-minder who talk a lot and make a hell out of social media. 

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Women can never be alone, because that's what they were created to. As accompany of Adam. Sejak semula perempuan sudah diciptakan untuk menemani sang Adam. Lantas kenapa sekarang protes kalau disebut sebagai 'perhiasan dunia'? Kenapa merasa tidak terima?

Mereka tidak bisa hidup sendirian, itulah kenapa filsuf atau nabi selalunya adalah laki-laki, yang pergi menyendiri agar diberi kejernihan berpikir. Perempuan tidak bisa melakukan perjalanan sendirian, akan sangat repot untuk mereka dan kecemasan mereka. Meskipun jika dipaksakan pasti bisa juga, tapi akan berbeda hasilnya dengan laki-l…

Tuning in the Universe

"Please don't see
Just a boy caught up in dreams and fantasies
Please see me
Reaching out for someone I can't see

Take my hand, let's see where we wake up tomorrow
Best laid plans sometimes are just a one night stand
I'll be damned, Cupid's demanding back his arrow
So let's get drunk on our tears"


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"This song invokes constellations, astrological signs (Aries and Leo), a story between a sheep and lion representing two lovers. Their love seemed ideal, as compatible together as Aries and Leo in horoscopes, but this song is more about separation of two lovers when they were young ("I thought I heard you out there crying"). The singer now wonders if there can be reconciliation ("Just the same"). 

No matter the differences between two people, can it ever be that they can still love each other? Or as referenced from the Bible, that a lion lie down with a lamb? ("Lion kiss a deer")

Young love can have partners that are selfish, too…

Demons

"No matter what we breed, We still are made of greed This is my Kingdom come This is my Kingdom come
When you feel my heat,  look into my eyes It's where my demons hide It's where my demons hide Don't get too close It's dark inside It's where my demons hide, It's where my demons hide"  Imagine Dragons - Demons. 
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Secuplik lagu tadi menutup perjalanan saya pulang kantor malam ini. Sembari mengantri macet oleh sebab mobil yang melampaui batas, mengambil jalur sebelah dan menghambat pergerakan lalu lintas, yang justru menjadi tontonan lucu karena mobil yang sepertinya dikendarai oleh sepasang suami istri itu, malah marah-marah. Padahal mereka salah. Saya menyaksikan bagaimana sang istri turun dari mobil, marah-marah, memarahi pengendara yang menghadang. Wajar mereka dihadang, mobil itu mencoba menyalip mobil-mobil lain dengan menggunakan jalur orang lain yang berlawanan arah. Tapi ketimbang mengaku salah dan membantu mengatur lalu lintas, si Ibu justru turun un…

Getting Rid of a Lousy Feeling

Perhaps its easy for me to say that a minimalist should master the art of feeling-picking. Somehow people get trapped into something too deep that they don't even know whether or not its useful for their life.Say.. Love?Don't you agree that we could fall in love in just a blink of an eye without knowing why and it takes endless time to forget?Yeah, a minimalist won't make it hard to let go when he/she knows that it's not his/hers to keep.To me its easy because lucky me, I'm an Arian. (Oh yeah zodiac matter), plus I've experienced certain of pain through leaving and get left behind so I could say, in this situation.. Am the expert.We do forget people quickly, shame to say.. Its too quick for certain people with no value. And you wouldn't know how relieving it is until you tried.I know in Islam there's no such thing of cutting people down, as silaturahmi is one thing human must keep until they die. Connection will bring value and unexpected blessing, if I…

Siapa Kamu?

Siapa kamu? Beraninya mengetuk tanpa menyapa.
Siapa kamu? Beraninya masuk tanpa permisi.
Siapa kamu? Tiba-tiba hadir dan merusak semua ini.Aku tidak sedang menunggumu. Pun menduga kedatanganmu. Aku sedang senang bermain dengan bayangan, sampai kamu datang dan tampak nyata.Tapi..Siapa kamu?Aku dan mereka, kami.. Sudah hidup berkecukupan dengan yang kami punya sebelum kamu datang.
Makanan, air, bahan bangunan, hutan sediakan semua untuk kami. Bahkan jika disebut.. Kami sudah terbilang mewah jika beratapkan rumah kokoh.Lalu kamu datang..Membawa kebahagiaan. Atau setidaknya, kamu sebut itu kebahagiaan. Padahal aku tahu, itu hanya sementara. Kamu akan pergi, yang kamu bawa pun akan habis. Seharusnya aku tahu, aku tak boleh terlalu percaya padamu. Tak boleh menggantungkan bahagiaku padamu. Karena pada akhirnya kamu pasti akan pergi. Pada akhirnya kamu akan pamit. Aku bahkan tak tahu sejauh mana keinginanmu untuk tetap bertahan dan menawariku bermacam-macam kebahagiaan.Aku sudah cukup dengan…

Still No Post

Here's why:Yesterday, I was on trip. Field visit, as I work as a consultant, I assess their field to bring out the best and applicable recommendation for sustainable practice on plantation company. So yeah, I travel a lot and travel often to the east and south side of Indonesia.Now that I'm in East Kalimantan. What so special is the remarkable distance.My flight schedule was 06.40 which means I have to start from home at 03.00 (and the driver has arrived since 02.30). And that's.. When the journey began.Garuda Indonesia, was delayed! Rarely happen, but boarding time was accurate. Delayed for thirteen minutes, but is not a big deal.Our arrival time at Balikpapan was only thirteen minutes late, and still not a big deal. Lunch, rest, and then depart to Samarinda for like four hours. Which is normally three hours.From Samarinda, the trip estimated to be five hours. So its nine hours total in Kalimantan and seven hours spent between home to Balikpapan. Sixteen hours in the sky …

No Post

No post for these two nights because am dealing with all situations at work, house, and keeping up with social relation. Nothing I've learned from all that besides: don't talk too much and don't reveal too much. Keep a little mystery, for what people think its sexy.Come back again later, yes?I'll write something useful.Like how to use a smiling Alpaca picture to heal ur self. Lol.

Insecurity

Lucunya, sehari setelah saya menulis tentang orang yang berbicara hal-hal tidak perlu pada postingan Keep it for Yourself (K.I.Y), saya kembali menemukan adegan lucu di supermarket.Sore selepas hujan, setelah seharian berdiam di rumah bolak balik tidur dan makan, saya dan housemate memutuskan untuk belanja bulanan. Sabun dan segala macam kebutuhan dapur. Cerita ini saya dapat dari housemate, karena ia yang mengantri di supermarket sedangkan saya tidak berbelanja apapun, kecuali dari health store yang masih berada dalam kawasan yang sama. Sepasang suami istri yang membawa anak mereka yg masih bayi, ikut mengantri di belakang housemate saya. Karena jarak yang tidak seberapa, apapun yang dikatakan pasangan itu terdengar oleh Housemate. So this is a story of a commenter-father "Serasa pengen bantuin penjaga kasirnya, lelet amat" komentar pertama."Padahal UMR ya, tapi kenapa gak banyak yang buka kasirnya. Apa karena lagi efisiensi karyawan, hu" komentar kedua"Ih di…

K.I.Y (Keep It for Yourself)

Di jaman yang serba bebas ini, orang bebas mengutarakan pendapat dan isi hati kepada orang lain bahkan mengenai hal-hal paling tidak penting sekalipun.Setelah lima hari berada di pelosok Kalimantan Timur dengan jarak tempuh perjalanan sejauh Manado - Gorontalo, hari ini adalah hari pertama saya libur dan berada kembali di Bogor. Namun tepat ketika saya tiba di rumah, teman serumah mencetuskan ide untuk nonton film di bioskop.. Sebenarnya ide itu sudah tercetus duluan, dan sudah lebih dulu saya wujudkan sendirian. Tapi tak apa, hitung-hitung merayakan hari istimewa; 7 10 20 17 😂***Matahari sudah melewati separuh perjalanannya berotasi ketika saya tiba di antrian kemacetan perlintasan kereta api. Pukul dua siang dan Bogor sedang panas-panasnya. Panas menyengat yang membuat sesak napas. Siapapun akan mudah marah dalam kondisi itu. Apalagi kalau ia sedang lelah.Ban motor saya tiba-tiba bocor. Motor yang memang kurang terawat karena jarang dipakai itu, tiba-tiba menambah kesulitan ditenga…

Self Love

All these works got me thinking; was it all worthy?***I find my self wake up in numb every damn morning, for another flight. Different week, different city. And before I came to realization on where I am, I ask my self: who do I do these for?The answer varies from: my family, my responsibility, and my career ambition. But never it was: for me. Little did I know, never in my life, I do something for me. I put people before my self. Pleasing people was my goal, I'm happy if everyone is happy. I am sad if people unsatisfied. Until one day..I realized that no one is really there for me. When I stumble and fall, the only person who helped me was: me.Its not that they don't care, all the people around me, they listen when I talk. But that's it. One need to be understood, and so am I. But none will dig that deep for understanding a stranger, while I was doing that for free, to everyone.Then I made one decision that changed the way I see social relation.I chose me.
I love me.
I put …

Bulan dari Balik Bingkai Berkayu

Pukul lima sore langit masih biru, dari balik jendela kayu, saya menyaksikan rembulan yang sudah siap memantulkan cahaya lembut.Terkotak rapi melalui bingkai kayu yang juga biru, pukul lima sore sembari menunggu semangkuk bakso berkuah mengepul, saya nikmati pemandangan itu. Rembulan, terbingkai indah dari balik jendela kayu.Semakin lama semakin nampak cahayanya. Langit kian menggelap, oleh sinar matahari yang kian tenggelam. Kini giliran sang bulan bersinar diam-diam. Semakin malam terbitkan temaram.Kuning? Bukan. Putih? Bukan juga. Apa sebenarnya warna Sang Bulan? Saya bertanya dalam hati. Jika putih gading jawabnya, mengapa begitu cerah bersinar? Bersih sekali langit sore tadi, hingga awan pun malu menampakkan diri. Mereka tidak berani mendekati Sang Bulan yang dengan percaya diri tampi sendiri. Mungkin awan sadar, ia hanyalah partikel yang mudah tercerai berai. Tidak cukup kokoh bagi Bulan yang kuat dan bersinar. Bulan hanya menginginkan Matahari. Yang setara, dan sepadan dengan s…