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Papa Gode & Eyang

  The typical Father and Son, one with ego one with pride. My Grandfather is a Javanese who happened to spent half of his life in Sunda Land, met a woman, fell in love, got married, and turn to be a Sundanese himself. Somehow he still put Javanese identity to his children, named his sons with very Javanese names, and made me called his eldest Son with Papa Gode instead of just Uwak (Sundanese title for 'uncle'). Papa Gode means he is the eldest as short of Pak'De (Javanese title for 'uncle') but I don't think this title is common.. probably I could say we're the only family in this country referring to the eldest uncle as Papa Gode. The other meaning of it is.. Big Papa or Fat Papa.  I barely know him, unless for a few car rides I gave him last year after we celebrate Eid. I gave him a ride until Cibubur, and only till the exit toll gate before I turned around and continue home. (The second time was the one I regret the most, I was very certain that I'll
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But did Maryam know?

  She was born a saint, her childhood was spent in the chamber. Serving God.. that's what she's been told. An obedient girl she is, obeying the rule without ever questioning. She is devoting her life to Allah, and content with it.  Until she carries a child. A fatherless child. Fatherless as she know, but not with society. They judge her, despise her, called her sinner, called her a disgrace to the community. A saint woman was once wish to be dead. Under Palm Dates Tree, she is wishing for death. Death is much more preferred to me now, she said which we recites loudly slowly beautifully in the Quran now. A saint woman, whose entire life is devoted to serve God.. is wishing to die while delivering the baby.  Now we read her story and just know it. We know she is strong enough to face the trial. We know now that she is one of the most honoured women of all humanity. But the question is.. did she know?  When she finds out her pregnancy, did she know that she will be strong enough

Love is always the secret ingredient

  Cookies that I made for myself for Lebaran Love is always the secret ingredient. A pinch of that will sweeten your life. Don't be too much because you'll get drunk, don't be too little, because you still need it anyway. Remembering Eid last year, and I'm terrified that I will spend it alone again this year as the government cut the holiday. So this is what I'm doing right now.. preparing for the worst like I always do. Learning new recipes for one or two. Just in case I should stay here, alone in this town. Again. *** Bogor, 2 Maret 2021 Habis nonton the Proposal (untuk kesekian kalinya). 'I've been alone since I was 16. I forgot what it's like to have family. To love you, make you breakfast, and tell you they wanna come visit you on the holiday..' and she can't swim.  'Trust me, you really don't wanna be with me' I know how she feels.

Lelah ya?

  Sabar ya, paling juga cuma sebentar. Habis ini kita pulang, lalu istirahat. Baik-baik lah terhadap emosi. Jangan terlalu terbawa suasana hingga mengeluarkan kata-kata tidak bijaksana. Dinginkan kepala sebelum mengambil keputusan. Berjalanlah keluar. Lihat warna langit. Tadi pagi awannya pun gemerlap saking bahagianya menyambut bulan yang baru. Yang terjadi hari ini bukan segalanya untukmu. Tetap tenang, hela nafasmu dalam, hembuskan perlahan.  Tenang.. Nikmati aliran air mata kesalmu itu. Tumpahkan semua jangan ada yang bersisa. Karena dua menit lagi, hadirmu akan dibutuhkan oleh dunia. Ada orang-orang yang menunggu instruksi darimu, ada orang-orang yang menunggu semangat yang kamu tularkan. Sabar ya, paling juga cuma sebentar. Habis ini kita pulang, lalu istirahat. *** Bogor, 1 Maret 2021 Saya banyak menulis, karena saya tinggal sendirian. Meski demikian, saya tidak mau membiarkan sembarang orang masuk lalu lalang. Lebih baik sendirian berkutat dengan pikiran, ketimbang berbicara pa

[Minimalism in Perspective]: Tradisi, Budaya, Adat, dan Identitas

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Pasar!

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Joy

  Just like any other good things in life, a good movie will come to you when you need it the most. *** I've been wanting to watch this movie since last year. For the past five years I've been losing my movie ritual, as the only time for me to watch movies is in the airplane. I have to catch up with La La La Land on my flight to Balikpapan, and watch Christopher Robin on my flight to Jayapura. It wasn't even fresh, I've been late for a year or so when I was able to watched them.  So I just knew that this movie exist when I can stay at home for as long as I wanted during pandemic, from one of the talkshow I used to binge everyday when I was about to graduate college and was worry about being jobless. This movie is everything I need right now. I don't understand why I clicked it after watching Wanda-Vision. As my mood was dark, and I have to order a big box of pizza and cheesy potatoes just to make me feel less lonely. I saw the poster everyday. Everyday as in lunch t