To Love Again

  After over six months, I finally find a reason to write again and this time, it's about love. I am fully aware that I've been isolating my self from any kind of romance for almost 7 years now. Yes, I dated briefly, yes I had a crush or two, but it was never serious because I can still remember the taste of pain when one relationship ended. A decision that I made consciously back then, to chose my career over a guy, was pretty solid until I met him.  People say that love will find you when you least expect it. So focus on bettering yourself, be an amazing woman that you are, and love will find a way to reach you. And yes, life has a funny way to show you that whatever decisions you choose, in the end, you're not the one to make it.  I didn't plan to fall in love when I visited Istanbul. I didn't plan to be involved in any kind of romance as I am aware that this will be just a temporary visit. What would you expect from a less than two weeks stay. However, I did 

Warteg Anugerah

 Juni akan segera berakhir. Tampaknya, Juni 2022 ini akan saya tutup di Pangkalan Kerinci (Insya Allah jika Allah mengijinkan). Kata orang tempat itu indah, tapi saya tidak lagi berani berekspektasi apalagi sampai kegirangan. Karena pasti ada saja hal terjadi jika terlalu antusias menunggu sesuatu. Post ini saya beri judul Warteg Anugerah, sebagai apresiasi sebuah tempat usaha yang sesuai namanya; bagai anugerah bagi saya di Bulan Juni. Bulan tengah tahun yang membuat semua jantung berdebar karena rupanya kalender yang baru dipakai beberapa bulan ini akan segera diganti. Begitu cepat semua diganti. Semua pun akan terganti tanpa kecuali.  Sebuah warung kecil yang bersih, lantainya bersih, tempatnya terbuka namun cukup teduh untuk mereka yang makan, dan cukup jauh dari lalu lalang kendaraan sehingga makanan yang di pajang dibalik jendela kaca itu terlihat utuh menggoda tanpa noda. Saya temukan warung ini pada suatu pagi yang terik, bosan dengan menu yang itu-itu saja, bosan setiap hari h

June!! (Again)

  May always has a way to ruin my routine. I lost my grandfather on May 2021 which turns everything upside down. Now, I have my May watching Johnny Depp trial while waiting for the news of Ridwan Kamil's missing son. So many things happened and yet, I can't pause the work. Work flows like a river with infinite end. But it's over now, it's June. The trial has ended (Johnny wins, yeay), the Governor's son still missing, and I am still stuck on my desk, working.  But now I am able to define joy. I always know that joy is from within and we can't rely on external source to be happy. This is June, so I decided to chose joy on daily basis. *** June, 2nd 2022

Allah is constantly talking to you

  Have you ever come across the experience where you were thinking of something, and that something happened? Or when you question something, the answer come to your head?  Today, I had a kind of difficult day with work which I never experienced before in this new place. I got here six months ago, and everything is all sunshine and glitter. Happy day, happy thought, happy faces are all my daily digest. Until today, when I suppose to regulate my emotion, and I was begging Allah for one thing I want the most, and yet the answer is no. I couldn't resist but to cry, and yet I managed to regain self control and move on. I asked Him, why. Why did He rejects the only wish I have for the past six months, and then a few hours later an old colleague of mine invites me to a birthday dinner. We used to celebrate our birthday together in a fancy and classy way, because she's way older, way richer than me, and she happened to call me when she's having difficulty at work. After those diff

My COVID Story

  22-02-2022 I got tested as COVID positive. The first time I had Covid since this virus went viral. It wasn't a good Tuesday, at least not for me. I constantly think about death, although I know so many people have recovered from it. I had the symptoms.. pretty badly.. that painful fever, body aching, I cry in my room, I move to the other room and cry in that room, wishing for death. I had sore throat, and hoarse voice. So.. yeah. I got covid. Days went by, and I learn to live with it. It's getting lighter, but what warms my heart is the attention I get from my surroundings. Friends keep sending me food, plenty of them.. frozen food, milk, chocolate, herbs, honey, oat biscuit.. everything I need is here because they're sending me. While writing this post.. which I'm pretty aware it's been a while since my last post.. I have an herb with honey. The herbs is from my bestfriend Hera, and the honey is from my bestfriend since high school, Ijal. I also had a cookie with

Three Miles a Day

  Morning air breezes as the warm sunlight touches my skin. I start to walk confidently in this empty street. Alone with my running shoes and a black tote bag filled with my wallet and book. I only know one place to go; beach. The same destination I have visited daily since the first day I arrived in this part of Bali. I never found a decent place to read, not as long as I walked this cobblestone path. But I keep carrying my book just in case, maybe one day I get lucky and find a nice shade with the sound of waves swirling back and forth.  I like this so much. I like the idea of me living in a vacation style for months. All I had to do is work from nine to six, Monday to Friday, and strolling to the beach in between my work schedule AND on the weekends. I never get tired of blue sky and sea. Those two are the reason why heaven is so tempting and kept me away from the things I desire; sins. Even though.. I'm not sure how long will I like it. I no longer that person who is anxious ab

Hygge: Enjoying Life's simple pleasure

  Menyederhanakan sesuatu bukan urusan sederhana, justru sebaliknya. Rumus matematika sederhana diperoleh dari proses berpikir yang teramat rumit, dan bukan dari proses berpikir orang yang nonton tiktok empat jam sehari (red; saya). Proses penyederhanaan apapun selalu harus melalui jalan paling rumit, sulit, yang sering kali bikin menyerah di tengah jalan. Hygge adalah sebuah kata dari Bahasa Denmark, kata yang tidak sengaja saya temukan dan saya suka sekali. Waktu saya tahu ini adalah Bahasa Denmark saya makin suka lagi. Sejak lima tahun lalu saya memang terobsesi dengan kultur Danish (terlebih sejak nemenin rekan yang pernah mampir ke Bogor dan saya temani kemana-mana waktu itu. Sekarang dia sudah punya anak satu, masih bayi pula.. terharu banget betapa cepat waktu berlalu..) eh malah nostalgia. Hygge adalah sebuah cara menikmati hidup dari hal-hal sederhana yang kita temui sehari-hari; keberadaan keluarga, teman, tubuh yang sehat, tempat tinggal yang nyaman,. prinsip hidup yang menj