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  Dear diary Today, I ate at 12am. First time in my life giving up to the growling stomach almost midnight. Usually, I just ignore and force my self to sleep then wake up with migraine. But tonight, 11.45 got hungry, checked shopee food, cancel the intention to order, and cook instead. 11.50 started cooking, 12.50 finished everything including the dish, all while keeping up with One Piece episodes I left off.. 😎 I'm proud of me. A new me just reborn. Bogor, 17th Oct switching to 18th. Oh and its 2026.

There's a certain kind of grief when you leave behind the life you used to know, entering a new one, knowing that it will be better but things will be different. I was just resigned, not dead. But it does feel like I'm dead. At least for a couple of weeks back then, I keep opening Teams app just to see if anybody messaged me. None. My online status has been changed with some notifications this person has left the organisation, sort of thing. I still write to some colleagues, saying goodbye and all, and just like that, my whole entity has completely disappeared.  Now I open the same app, but with completely different people. It still new, so not as messy. But deep down I know, the kind of connection I was (unintentionally) made in my previous work place, won't be replicated. Maybe I'll find something better, maybe I don't but the same exact one won't happen again. Not even with the same persons. I guess, even with age, I still can't get along really well with...

  I just had my farewell session with a job that has been growing with me for the past 5 years.  I had none to talk to. So I write it here. I feel sad, but also excited for the next chapter. Its too much to feel right now, leaving behind a part of me that is so familiar. This job go through all my darkest time I've ever been. Three exes.. that's a lot of exes. Almost made me not wanting to love again I'm so sad. So very sad. But I cant say it to people because naturally, they want me to be unsad. But I want to be sad, at least for now. I'm sad leaving the team. But I'm happy for the new one to come.

This is for my 17days Umrah Itikaf, in Ramadan, 17-31 March 2025 when the temperature wasn't too hot.   Clothings: 9 Abayas + 2 Pajamas + Legging and inner tshirt + other inner clothings 9 Khimar or hijab, Hijab pin  9 Inner Hijab 9 Handsocks 15 socks ( this is important because socks is hard to find in Mecca) 21 Paper underwear + some fabric underwear + 1 pack of panty liner Comfy and light sandal Hat (is a must) Qur'an pocket (yes, there are plenty of Quran in Haramain that you can use, but I prefer using mine, because the font is more familiar, and I don't have to stand up and walk through people to reach the Quran. In some places like the rooftop of Masjidil Haram, the Quran spots is only a few, makes it harder to reach during crowded time).  Dhikr bead, dhikr ring Sanitary and Beauty kit Basic skincare kit, and bathroom kit Deorex; deodorant spray, non-perfumed. Recommended. This is the reason why I can wear same abayas for two days. I only change the tanktop in...