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(Tulisan ditulis saat masih mengawal training, di hari terakhir)


***

Don't quit just because things are hard.


This is all doesn't really matter when you die, so keep going, don't take it to the heart. Process with logic not feelings.


Remember the darkness of death every time you feel like powerless.


Remember Him, and He is waiting for you this Dzuhr, or Ashr, and remember that you will run to Him, and tell Him everything about today. Cry to Him and Him only.


Remember how sinful you are, and the only way to forgive those sins is just by working really hard, deliver your best.


Never expect quit means easier way. Life won't get any easier, you have to get used to that, adjust, and adapt.

***

Bogor, 18 Februari 2021

Di balik meja bundar beralaskan kain putih, dengan jam weker yang dijinjing kesana kemari karena jam tangan sudah mati. Akan ada selalu orang-orang yang menganggapmu tidak signifikan, yang hanya mau mendengarkan orang yang lebih tinggi darinya, dan itu bukan kamu. Tidak apa-apa. 

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