Labelling when you're burning out

 


Burnout is new to me. I don't know what to do, nor that I have motivation to do anything. 2,5 hours has passed and I did nothing on my desk but to scroll stock market and buy a couple of lots. I have nothing in mind, and this is when I decided to write this down:


When you feel burnout.. try to recognize the situation. Try labelling the feeling. Why. Why you feel the way you feel now. Ask why for five times. Why you lose your motivation. Why you need company. Why you need to talk to other people. What is it that you want? How to make you feel better. Keep asking these questions until you know what to do with yourself. It doesn't matter if you remain stoic or take no action about it, as long as you got the label, you put it clearly in your head, and enjoy the rest of your day, in stoic mode. Time you enjoy wasting, is not wasted anyway. Do it mindfully, at least, so that you won't regret it later.


This is a tough time for everyone. It feels like last year, only recent. Feels like 2020, only with better stock prices. Don't push yourself too hard, try to reconnect with the light inside your soul, instead. She knows what to do. She knows her way. Trust her.


***

Bogor, 5 April 2021; 11.51 AM

Writing in the AM, just to show how clueless I am right now. 

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