Minimalist Indonesia

Masih ada perempuan yang lebih suka dikasih Bunga Mawar ketimbang bunga bank. Bunga mawar beli di pasar kembang, atau sekedar bebungaan dipetik di jalanan. 
Menurutnya, lebih baik bunga segar, karena disitulah letak cinta dan perhatian. Gestur kecil yang membekas selamanya. Meluruhkan segala amarah dan kesal yang pernah ada, terganti dengan cinta yang bertubi-tubi.
Sedangkan bunga bank.. Meski bisa membeli seisi Bumi, tetap tidak akan mampu membeli alat pelindung diri kala bara api neraka mulai menelusup kulit dan belulang kita. Jadi mereka memilih untuk hidup secukupnya, hidup dengan gaji yang ada, bekerja lebih keras ketika ada kebutuhan ekstra, ketimbang menyimpan uang dalam spekulasi akan berkembang sendiri.
Tidak, sayang. Bukan jenis hidup seperti itu yang aku gambar dalam rencana masa depan kita. Api neraka terlalu menjijikkan, dan aku tidak ingin dia menyentuh kulitmu atau kulitku.

If you’re a friend of mine, you cant befriend of my enemy. even just to be nice with him. Its him or me. Thats all. (Ex do count).

For no reason.. and suddenly I feel like praying.. and I burst into tears., for my pasts, for my sins, and I read the Quran, with normal voice. Until I recite this one ayah.. not knowing the meaning but suddenly I cried out loud, I cried while reciting the ayah.. and I look at the translation page right away.. to see what is the ayah about.
It was.. An Nahl-110.

Aku suka kerja di rumah,Karena gak harus pake celana.
Me, 27 y.o

Have you ever been lonely?If you do, hug it. Feel it, embrace it. You dont have to always deny it, because you dont always have to be fine. Its okay and its normal to feel lonely. As freeing as it is, living alone sucks. But this too shall pass. Allah Knows, and He Has a better plan for you.

When you dont know what is going on in your lifeWhen you had no idea what to do next, and what are you currently doing. When you feel like this long dark tunnel has no end. You dont see the light You hear nothing but your voice You had a darkest dream
And you started to wish that you just.. dead. Nothing seems to work. No movies, nor song, no flight ticket can help you get out from this tunnel. Because all you need is.. a hand to held you tight, pull you out, and hug you once you hit the ground.
You need those helping hand. You need to be told that everything is alright. That you’re doing just fine. But silence. You need to say the word., to the person you love the most. But your mouth shut whenever they’re around. Like.. all the wors you’ve prepared, gone with one poof.
I said all these.. Because of this weird feeling I’ve felt lately. It sucks and I dont like it. I did everything I can to dodge, Allah knows I did my best. At least.. Allah knows this struggle.. Allah knows and He’s doing somethi…

Do you know what it takes if you’re lonely?
Do you know what it feels to numb your feeling?
Its ugly. And as ugly as it is.. sometimes.. you feel like death is much better

All prayers must get answered.
If it's not the situation, if the answer isn't the thing that we asked for, then it'll come in a better form. And, if it doesn't, it'll come in form of change of heart. Either it's stronger, or stop wanting for it.
He Knows everything, He Sees everything, and He Hears everything.

He will not give us a trial without a stone to step on. Without the ability to overcome the trial. There is always some sort of unexpected power, coming to us, to help us get through the dark tunnel.
And like any other tunnel.. it'll end.

November, 2019
Tidak ada hari yang lebih membahagiakan dalam hidup Lana, selain hari di mana Hanas mengucap janji setianya di hadapan semua penduduk semesta. Kalimat yang lancar dan tenang mengalir dari suara teduh Hanas, suara yang selama dua puluh tahun ini selalu berhasil menjadi air kala ia sedang menjadi api. Lana bangkit dari tempat duduknya, diapit oleh kedua ibu yang hari itu nampak cantik dengan kebaya silver yang berkilau jika terkena cahaya lampu. Lana berjalan pelan, diiringi oleh dua ibu, tertunduk malu, menghampiri lelaki yang kelak akan menghabiskan sisa hidup bersamanya.
Tatapan mereka beradu. Keduanya sama-sama tertunduk malu, mengulum senyum. Hanas mengulurkan tangan, disambut oleh Lana yang mencium tangannya khidmat. Air mata nyaris menetes saat bibirnya menyentuh tangan Hanas. Rasanya masih seperti mimpi. Namun sorakan dari para hadirin, dan kilatan lampu kamera menyadarkan dirinya bahwa inilah nyata yang selama ini ia damba. Angan yang akhirnya terwujud nyata.
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