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Twenty-Nine

 



So many people accomplished different things in their twenty-nine. My Mom, for example, she has one stubborn daughter and one son, and move to a new life far in the Eastern side of Indonesia when she was twenty-nine. I can imagine now how stressful that was.. Merauke dulu gak sama kayak sekarang. Jalan utamanya saja kecil.. setelah beberapa tahun kita tinggal di Merauke baru tuh ada yang namanya lampu lalu lintas. Yang sewaktu itu resmi terpasang, dijadikan objek wisata oleh warga setempat. 


Aaand that brought me.. here. Alone in a new city.. yang kupikir akan menakutkan pindah ke sini sendiri dan untuk kerja pulang (ketimbang biasanya hanya untuk liburan). Kerja dari pagi sampai sore, berharap sorenya bisa melepas penat dengan melihat ke pantai, ya walaupun pernah tapi ternyata tidak bisa sesering yang diharapkan. Toh tetap saja aktivitas terbaik selepas ngantor adalah nonton Netflix atau Lapor Pak.


But I make new friends here. Orang-orang baru yang saya kenal dan menjadi teman. Walaupun susah betul untuk menemukan teman di umur segini.


I was young, I was cheerful, I was kind, I care about people. But then I was hurt, I was in pain, I trust and I got betrayed, and then I am different, I am wise, at least for my own life, I take responsibilities, I get quiet, I put myself first, and I.. move on. Yep.. in twenty nine, I learned that whatever it is that we're going through right now, we just have to move forward. Gak perlu merindukan kehidupan yang lama, apalagi sampai menyesali keputusan yang diambil. Karena pasti ada alasan kenapa pilihan itu melintas di depan kita, dan kita ambil, dan semesta merestui. Kalau memang jalan itu bukan untuk kita, pasti kita sekarang pun sedang nelangsa menangisi apa yang kita pikir kegagalan.


So in my twenty nine, I learned that, even new place won't make us happy if we aren't. 

It's not outside world's job to make you feel content. 

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Bali, 15 Oktober 2021

Love yourself enough to the point where you don't need to compare your life with others.

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