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Self Acceptance


There’s one lesson that eventually all human beings will learn. Some learn it at very young age, some learn it when they’re old and grey. Some people are lucky enough to learn it while they were single, and some people have to struggle with it while taking care of their children.

The lesson is about self acceptance. Because at the end of the day, all we have is ourselves. The only person who live and breathe with us since the day we born till the day we die. 

Self acceptance came in many form, and mostly pain will bring the lesson. To accept of who you are, where you came from, who’s your family.. to uncover all the layers of mask because you wanna be somebody else. 

Sometimes people are not very proud about their origin, sometimes people tried to hide their families, these are the masks that people need to deal with before they move forward. And by ‘deal with’, I mean accept it. 

Accepting that you’re not perfect, and neither the world. Accepting that you have an embarrassing family, but who didn’t (I mean.. 🤷🏻‍♀️). Accepting that you are human, you have flaws, and that’s the value of you.

Being your authentic self doesn’t always mean showing off your flaws, or your insecurity. Being your authentic self can also mean that you realize the flaws, you recognize it, embrace it and accept it, whether or not you announce it to the world.

Learning about yourself is one amazing journey that everyone should have. It will be dark and scary, because we tend to escape reality, not from the external world, but from within.

Accepting who you are, your true origin, your truest desire, your darkest ego.. is the most liberating lesson to learn in life. Be grateful if you had it before your thirties.


Bogor, 1 April 2021

Today, I’m accepting the fact that I need an entire day off from the external world, after weeks of huge responsibility and interaction with people. I’m not picking up the phone, nor answering any texts. I can’t. And I only realize it now, after every event, I should spare one day off just to put myself back together. And I dont need anyone’s permission to do that. 


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