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Amidst the Cloudy Tueday


One day I am a career-driven woman loaded with motivation, the other day I am a clueless soon-to-be-thirty who watch a random video clip and cry for the energy it radiates.

I watched Selena Gomez's interview the other day, and the interviewer said that Lose you to love me is one of the best songs of her for her entire career. She didn't argue and said this song is something to her. This song amazingly represents things that she's been through and not just about one particular thing her breakup. Until that day I haven't watched the clip yet. 

Now I understand how that black-and-white video means so much to her and the maker. There is always complexity behind every simple thing, right? Things could only be presented in simple ways only after the maker see the whole picture and the labyrinth of thinking that they start to point what really matters. That's the secret of simplicity; one must going thru a hell of complex trouble before simplifying things.

I cry for the lyric and her expression. (Lol ini baru tahu gue kalo video youtube bisa ada lirik kalo dinyalain subtitle, selama ini selalu buka different tab tuk search lirik. Si bodoh).

I am down for the thriving young woman, who struggles to stand on her feet despite every brick thrown at her. It's not easy, okay. We may look fine, and beautiful, and perfectly awesome, but it's a shipwreck inside our mind that needs to be fixed. But the only person who can fix it is us. No man could ever step in there and fix things.


Bogor, January 5th 2021

Somebody should remake OST Cinta yang Hari ini Esok dan Seterusnya by Nirina Zubir sama Ada Cinta by Acha Irwansyah. Those songs are too good to be forgotten.


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I was on page 184 when a good friend of mine texted and she suddenly poured her mental state. I was frozen for a moment before picking up my self and texted her back with some rational-encouraging words that I wish could help. This is a tough time for us, especially her, with all burden on her shoulder and the recent loss that we've experienced. It's not easy and never getting any easier, so we just have to face it now, embrace the fact that she's gone and feel the stings for a couple years. I finished two books today, one that I read from weeks ago, and one that I just read and not really have much information that I need. When I decided to go on the third book, only when I was halfway distractions started to come. Alright, I put my book aside and try to attend to the only thing I should attend: life. It's been a week since I shut myself in the house. Not going outside, let alone spoke to another human being. I feel weird doing that especially when I used to talk

About being a strong woman.,

My product(s) are a means to show people that we could and should be happy in wherever we are, in whatever the circumstances. As a single person battling with all the worryness of who am I gonna end up with while dealing with work and life, I must admit that I am strong enough to do it all alone. Including being obedient to difficult father and grandfather. I am strong. But at the end of the day, when I got home after a very long Sunday and clean my self with cold water.. I still wish that I have somebody in this house... to open the hair serum for me. :( Kenceng banget 15 menit nyoba buka tutupnya gabisa2


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