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The cost of having something you really want to, but you don't need.

 This lesson comes from the branded bags and shoes I bought a couple days ago. They were at a discount price, but still.. you know.. brand.. 

I was so happy when I saw them, happy when I made the payment, and happy to see the tracking progress as the first thing that I checked each day when I woke up. As they arrived.. I was so burst in excitement that I try so hard to calm my self. But then, I opened the wrap, the case, then the box.. and it suddenly appears, nothing as I expected. From that day on, I promise my self, to never again buy something branded online. It just didn't work that way. I don't get the same satisfaction as I had when buying them offline. I know it sounds old school, but believe me.. I online buy most of the things in this house including sugar, salt, and flip-flops.

So a thought hit me.. 

This is exactly what you get when you get something you don't need. Because when you need something, you know what you want, you know exactly how to use them, and when it arrives, no matter how pricey it is, you will be filled with joy and satisfaction as if there's a hole in your heart and it covered up perfectly. You will tolerate the flaws that may there because you need it. It's different when you just want it, even a tiny little scratch on the box upsets you. I bought a little shelf online, which I desperately need, and it came with a crooked on one of its sides but I did nothing, I still satisfied with what it is because it restored the peace on my desk, away from those skincare bottles. I even tell the seller gently, and not at all angry, and she said probably it was the courier so I let her think that way, no argue.


All the things that you're praying for,. marriage, baby, job, are not yours because you don't need it just yet. He knows better than we do about what we need and what we want. Sometimes we think we know ourselves better, but He is our master. He knows when the thing is right for us.

Maybe He still holds these up together because we just desperately want it.

Because when we need something, eventually they'll find a way to work it out for us, but when we want something, we have to work hard to get it. There are certain points when we have to work so hard on something, but there are also certain levels when we have to give it up all to The One. We just have to figure the boundaries. 


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