From Anne I see that the most wonderful thing that could ever happened after a wonderful adventure is having someone to talk about it. I didn’t have anyone to talk about my Raijua trip until a client came and she killed the time asking about my trip. I wouldn’t tell everyone about it because they won’t appreciate the feeling that I try to tell. So I chose to tell it only to those who ask.. only two people as I recall. Mom doesn’t count. She always despised such a trip. Dangerous she said. Unappropriate she said. I better write it here than telling people. And I realised.. how lonely it is.
So I understand one thing.. one that I kept asking my self about my last relationship., ‘why did I fall for him in the first place?’ The answer is.. because he asked me.. on one long journey to Sentarum Lake, he asked me through short message.. a text.. ‘how do you feel about the journey’ he said.. and that’s when I thought he was the one. I almost think I’m an idiot, falling that easy. He might be didn’t mean it at all.. just a flirty dirty little text. But I couldn’t blame my self, I mean.. how could I.. if my favorite sentence is..
“Tell me everything”
.. later on I know that he never actually listened.
Now,
I still love it when people ask whats in my head, but one full-complete answers are only for those who I knew truly care. I can tell whose is whom.
So I understand one thing.. one that I kept asking my self about my last relationship., ‘why did I fall for him in the first place?’ The answer is.. because he asked me.. on one long journey to Sentarum Lake, he asked me through short message.. a text.. ‘how do you feel about the journey’ he said.. and that’s when I thought he was the one. I almost think I’m an idiot, falling that easy. He might be didn’t mean it at all.. just a flirty dirty little text. But I couldn’t blame my self, I mean.. how could I.. if my favorite sentence is..
“Tell me everything”
.. later on I know that he never actually listened.
Now,
I still love it when people ask whats in my head, but one full-complete answers are only for those who I knew truly care. I can tell whose is whom.
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