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A Tale of a Confuse Girl

She doesn’t know who she is. She thinks she knows, but all she sees is a fragile-lost girl in her pajamas. People keep telling tales of finding who you are and embrace it. Thus, one would possess a power in a weight of the world. But how will she embrace who she is if she didn’t know who is she in the first place?

Mirror mirror on the wall..” she whispers. Only silence, for the mirror isn’t belong to the Evil Queen. Mirror can’t tell anything but to show her her reflection. A confused young woman who wouldn’t know what she’s about to have.

Just like the others.. she’s searching for her happy ending. One that she hold so dearly for so long. She barely remember her childhood, hence she needs to re-trace it from some toys. She had this super power - she wants to call it this- a super power to erase bad memories. That she totally able to forgot all terrible things ever happened to her. It’s simple. She just chose to not remember and puff! It’s gone.

She knows she has to put some faith. That she has to believe that she will find her true love and get her happy ending. The world promises everyone a happy ending, she must have a portion in it. 

One thing she didn’t realize. She haven’t yet to learned one basic lesson of all: sincerity.

She befriends only to those who benefits her.
She only talk to stranger if they offer her some good talk.
She won’t help unless there’s something she would get.

Little did she know, she isn’t being kind. Its not kind if one expect something in return.
She need to learn what sincerity is, before she take a big jump. To another lesson I myself haven’t yet to figure.

Well, mate. This story won’t end here. Amidst of her confusion and fragility, she’s quite succes in developing her image. People are following her, copying her, and adore her in silent. She didn’t know that, neither the people won’t reveal anything about the good things in her. Because they are too busy fighting their own insecurities that they don’t know how to raise another. 

It doesn’t matter. Because I will tell you all of it. Now its about her, next will be about the woman who keep copying her and be the worse version of her.

Bogor, March 4th
First Monday of March 


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